Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I am in a Human Diversity class and the coursework that you are exposed to is really eye-opening. I'm just not a fan of the professor. However, yesterday I had to take a group oral exam with her for two hours. Being three on one with her really let me get to know her. And while I may not necessarily like her, I can still have respect for the person that she is. And so maybe now I won't give her such a terrible review on ratemyprofessor.com.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
And really all you want to do is let out your frustration but you want to do it in the healthiest way and you just don't know what that way is. And so instead you go to your room and wish that it would just solve itself without you having to do anything, even though you know that's not going to happen. You have to be proactive. But you want to do it in love. And how do you vent in love?
And so you just stick to your monosyllabic replies. Keeping the status quo.
But then you have no outlet for that anger. That frustration. And being frustrated is not healthy. It can make you lose sleep because all you can do is lie in bed and fume that the person does not get it. It can make you mad at other people for not doing anything. So then you ask yourself why aren't you doing anything? Why don't you have that spine? Didn't you always think you would have been in Gryfindor? Because you know only brave and loyal and courageous people were sorted into Gryfindor. You always thought that maybe you would be able to stand your ground when the forces were against you.
But things that work out in theory don't always work out in straight, hard core harsh, cold reality.
But you know what? The night is still young. It's not over. You can still fight. You can still think of the right words to say. I promise.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
This is by far one of my favorite pictures of her because she is so genuinely smiling here. I think she was laughing at my ridiculous-ness, but I'm willing to forgive her.
Our weekend started Thursday night when she calls to tell me that she has been stranded at her house and can't get to her car which is parked at CBU. Luckily I drive forty minutes to come unstrand her. (I was coming home anyway that night). And just to let you know, she lhad eft the keys in the ignition. It wasn't turned on. They were just in there. This is the epitome of Leesh. Then we decide to go and surprise Rachel Weinstein in her cottage. Which didn't work out to well because Rachel saw us before we could appropriately surprise her.
On Friday we help my sister with Special Olympics at CSDR. This is a really cool thing that this district does. After each sport, all the elementary, middle school and high schools in the district come together and they play each other. This time it was volleyball. It was a great way to start the day because all the kids just make me so happy. Leesh and I kept score for the jr. high games. Some got super competitive. What was the neatest thing was talking to the deaf kids from CSDR. Well trying to anyway. I basically just knew numbers and all they wanted to know was the score and if they were beating the team they were playing so they seemed to like it.
Then we go to a leadership conference. But we don't have to be there till later in the day, so we go on a little adventure. Basically we decide to just follow the sunset.
It was the best idea ever. I had a nice little photoshoot where Alisha took some stellar photos of me and we discovered that we could drive to my house by taking John F. Kennedy and turning on some random streets. We came back through that way and it seriously took five minutes. I really want to run that now. I just think it would be cool to be able to run to church from my house.
Then we went to the leadership conference thing that lasted to Saturday. I think the best thing that I got from that was new friends:
Emily and Kristin have always been people that I've known but never really got to know. Not going to lie, right before this picture Kristin and I were belting Taylor Swift's "love story." She pretty much became one of my favorite people after we did that. And Emily became one my favorite people when she developed a crush on one of the leaders from another church at the conference and continued to joke about it. Constantly.
After the conference, we went out to lunch and then I hang out with Alisha at her house. While we were there, two Mormon missionaries came to the door. And we talked to them about 10 minutes. I'm glad we did. It really just got me thinking about God and being able to articulate why I believe what I believe. They were nice guys and now thinking back to what we said I wish we could have talked longer and actually have delved into scripture.
Then later that night, Leesh and I go to church and then get ice cream with Kevin where we see Mercedes and some of her friends. Now Mercedes is from Spain. She moved here in jr. high and still says the wrong things when she thinks she's saying something else. Luckily she made the encounter quite unforgettable.
All I gotta say is that only Mercedes would serenade everybody in Albertson's parking lot. The girl playing the violin in Breanna. She's from Spain, too.
After this unexpected surprise, Leesh and I head to my brother in law's softball game.
About this time, Alisha and I part ways. I go home and to my lovely surprise my other sister and her husband were there with Wyatt. And I got to hold him for a bit.
I really think he's going to be spoiled by me. Which is probably good because he is definitely not going to be getting that from his mama.
And Sunday was pretty relaxing. I went to church. Hung out with some high schoolers. Made embarrassing elephant noises. Took a nap when I should have been reading. Made funfetti cookies for the OG. Went to the OG. Read in Psalms. Drove back to APU and went to bed relatively early. I just wished this weekend lasted a little longer. No I am back to reality.
My only motivation to keep going is Thanksgiving break in 5 1/2 weeks. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
It just really reminded me of Travis Osborne and how he would always remember everyone's name and everyone's life story. I don't think he reads this but here is a shout out to him. Whenever my friends from the church reminisce about old times we always just think about the Osbornes. Seriously, we were so blessed to have them in our lives. And I am so excited for all the lives that they are touching up at Simpson University.
Hmmm, I am really in the mood to bake some cookies, but I have a meeting to go to soonish. So I think I will make some tomorrow. .
Friday, October 3, 2008
Anyway, I am exhausted and so I head off to bed, but I cannot fall asleep. Kai and Kim and Ariel are still up (its about 1:00 now) because Kai and Kim have test and Ariel has an 8 page paper that she procrastinated on. Now, the walls in this mod are very thin. I can hear basically everything that they are saying, when they are talking. And its funny because every once in a while they talk about me. Now, I have been so busy lately just because I am doing and involved in so many things, so I cannot procrastinate on anything. It also makes me extremely worn out so I am usually in bed by midnight. There are some nights that maybe I should stay up later to do homework, but it is physically impossible for me to stay awake. So anyway, one of the things that I hear that completely made my day was from Kim. She says "I'm going to start wearing a W.W.J.D. bracelet for 'What would Jane do?'" I start cracking up but I don't want to be too loud and let them know that I heard them. So I just stifle my laughter and eventually drift off to sleep.
It really just makes me laugh because I feel like I am barely hanging on and keeping a grip on everything. I think its funny that they think I am so organized and whatnot.
I love my roommates. And eavesdropping apparently.